and it happened out of nowhere…after giving a eulogy at a family funeral, she suffered a brain aneurysm. even my uncle, a geriatric doctor, couldn’t help her. two days later, my dad called me to tell me and it was the worst day of my life. i can only be thankful that she didn’t suffer, or so i was told.
i can’t believe it’s been 3 years since my grandma passed away…3 years. and i have been dreading this day for the last week because i still can’t believe she is gone. yes i know she is only gone physically and she is here emotionally, mentally, and all that bs. but it’s just not the same. i never really question my faith in God or being a Catholic, but He took away someone that made the world better. She was good. she was a good person, always willing to help others. She was a great teacher and a great grandma. she was the only family member who flew out from Hawai’i to see me graduate high school. and that was the last time I saw her…2006. there are still sooo many things I wish I could have changed, like calling more often and going back home to see her. I would give anything to see her at least one more time. I wish she was able to see me graduate from college. And I wish that she could have been there to see the day I get married and have children.
i still remember riding the bus to Chinatown to get groceries for dinner. and when mosquitos would bite her instead of my grandpa, her response was “i’m sweeter than your grandpa.” and everytime Nelly and Kelly Rowland’s “Dilemma” comes on, it’s hard not to cry. i still feel her singing along with me to the “oooh”…it’s definitely a random song to be singing with your grandma, but it’s one of the funniest memories I still hold on to. she was and will always be the most amazing woman i have ever known.
grandma, I thank you for everything you have ever taught me about having fun, love, family, friends, food, and life. i am the person i am today because of the foundation you helped my parents lay for me. i can only hope that i always make you proud. i cannot wait to reunite with you in heaven…i love you grandma!